According to Van Veen (the narrator and main character in VN’s novel Ada, 1969), Marina (Van's, Ada's and Lucette's mother) confessed with an enigmatic and rather smug smile that much as she liked the rhythmic blue puffs of incense, and the dyakon’s rich growl on the ambon, and the oily-brown ikon coped in protective filigree to receive the worshipper’s kiss, her soul remained irrevocably consecrated, naperekor (in spite of) Dasha Vinelander, to the ultimate wisdom of Hinduism:
Numbers and rows and series — the nightmare and malediction harrowing pure thought and pure time — seemed bent on mechanizing his mind. Three elements, fire, water, and air, destroyed, in that sequence, Marina, Lucette, and Demon. Terra waited.
For seven years, after she had dismissed her life with her husband, a successfully achieved corpse, as irrelevant, and retired to her still dazzling, still magically well-staffed Côte d’Azur villa (the one Demon had once given her), Van’s mother had been suffering from various ‘obscure’ illnesses, which everybody thought she made up, or talentedly simulated, and which she contended could be, and partly were, cured by willpower. Van visited her less often than dutiful Lucette, whom he glimpsed there on two or three occasions; and once, in 1899, he saw, as he entered the arbutus-and-laurel garden of Villa Armina, a bearded old priest of the Greek persuasion, clad in neutral black, leaving on a motor bicycle for his Nice parish near the tennis courts. Marina spoke to Van about religion, and Terra, and the Theater, but never about Ada, and just as he did not suspect she knew everything about the horror and ardor of Ardis, none suspected what pain in her bleeding bowels she was trying to allay by incantations, and ‘self-focusing’ or its opposite device, ‘self-dissolving.’ She confessed with an enigmatic and rather smug smile that much as she liked the rhythmic blue puffs of incense, and the dyakon’s rich growl on the ambon, and the oily-brown ikon coped in protective filigree to receive the worshipper’s kiss, her soul remained irrevocably consecrated, naperekor (in spite of) Dasha Vinelander, to the ultimate wisdom of Hinduism.
Early in 1900, a few days before he saw Marina, for the last time, at the clinic in Nice (where he learned for the first time the name of her illness), Van had a ‘verbal’ nightmare, caused, maybe, by the musky smell in the Miramas (Bouches Rouges-du-Rhône) Villa Venus. Two formless fat transparent creatures were engaged in some discussion, one repeating ‘I can’t!’ (meaning ‘can’t die’ — a difficult procedure to carry out voluntarily, without the help of the dagger, the ball, or the bowl), and the other affirming ‘You can, sir!’ She died a fortnight later, and her body was burnt, according to her instructions. (3.1)
Darkbloom ('Notes to Ada'): dyakon: deacon.
In his essay Vrazhda i druzhba stikhiy ("The Enmity and Friendship of the Elements," 1905) Fyodor Sologub says that in the naval battle of Tsushima (27-28 May 1905) the elements helped the Japanese and were against the Russians and quotes Chatski's words in Griboedov's comedy in verse Gore ot uma ("Woe from Wit," 1824) we live "rassudku vopreki, naperekor stikhiyam (contrary to reason, in spite of the elements):"
«Ветер и солнце были за японцев и против нас».
Из телеграммы собственного корреспондента.
Стихии были за японцев и против нас. Потому Цусимский бой был нами проигран. Так говорит газета. Она думает, что кому-то угождает этим. Она не знает, что говорит жестокую правду. Увы! правду слишком жестокую.
Если бы мы были язычниками, мы сказали бы:
– Боги ветра и солнца помогают нашим врагам, а где же наши боги?
Христианин скажет:
– Ветру и солнцу повелевает Бог.
И сделает скорбный вывод.
Человек точного ведения скажет:
– Надо брать в расчёт и ветер, и солнце, и многое другое. Кто идёт наобум, тот уж почти наверное нарвется на что-нибудь для него неожиданное.
Стихии давно уже против нас. Ещё Чацкий говаривал, что мы живём «рассудку вопреки, наперекор стихиям». Это сказано, собственно, о фраке. Но это относится, конечно, и к очень многому другому.
Говорят: в Цусимском бою солнце светило нашим в глаза, а у японцев оно было за спиною. Ветер тоже не поладил с нами, и помогал японцам, уж я не знаю, как именно. Прибавим заодно и обе остальные стихии: вода оказалась для нас неблагосклонною, потопила наши кое-как слаженные корабли, а земля… земля вблизи была японская. Конечно, она помогала нашему врагу. С её берегов налетала на нашу растерявшуюся эскадру туча миноносок.
In her memoir essay Fyodor Sologub (1949) Teffi (pseudonym of Nadezhda Lokhvitski, 1872-1952) describes Sologub ("a brick in the frock coat," as Rozanov called him) as follows:
Это был человек, как я теперь понимаю, лет сорока, но тогда, вероятно потому, что я сама была очень молода, он мне показался старым, даже не старым, а каким-то древним. Лицо у него было бледное, длинное, безбровое, около носа большая бородавка, жиденькая рыжеватая бородка словно оттягивала вниз худые щеки, тусклые, полузакрытые глаза. Всегда усталое, всегда скучающее лицо. Помню, в одном своем стихотворении он говорит:
Сам я и беден и мал,
Сам я смертельно устал...
Вот эту смертельную усталость и выражало всегда его лицо. Иногда где-нибудь в гостях за столом он закрывал глаза и так, словно забыв их открыть, оставался несколько минут. Он никогда не смеялся.
Такова была внешность Сологуба.
Жил Сологуб на Васильевском острове в казенной квартирке городского училища, где был преподавателем и инспектором. Жил он с сестрой, плоскогрудой, чахоточной старой девой. Тихая она была и робкая, брата обожала и побаивалась, говорила о нем шепотом.
Он рассказывал в своих стихах:
Мы были праздничные дети,
Сестра и я...
Они были очень бедные, эти праздничные дети, мечтавшие, чтоб дали им "хоть пестрых раковинок из ручья". Печально и тускло протянули они трудные дни своей молодости. Чахоточная сестра, не получившая своей доли пестрых раковинок, уже догорала. Он сам изнывал от скучной учительской работы, писал урывками по ночам, всегда усталый от мальчишечьего шума своих учеников.
His face was pale, long, without eyebrows; by his nose was a large wart; a thin reddish beard seemed to pull away from his thin cheeks; dull, half-closed eyes. His face was always tired, always bored... Sometimes when he was a guest at someone's table he would close his eyes and remain like that for several minutes, as if he had forgotten to open them. He never laughed... Sologub lived on Vasilievsky Island in the small official apartment of a municipal school where he was a teacher and inspector. He lived with his sister, a flat-chested, consumptive old maid. She was quiet and shy; she adored her brother and was a little afraid of him, and spoke of him only in a whisper. He said in a poem: "We were holiday children, My sister and I"; they were very poor, those holiday children, dreaming that someone would give them "even motley-colored shells from a brook." Sadly and dully they dragged out the difficult days of their youth. The consumptive sister, not having received her share of motley shells, was already burning out. He himself was exhausted by his boring teaching job; he wrote in snatches by night, always tired from the boyish noise of his students...
Dasha Vinelander has a fleshy little excrescence, resembling a ripe maize kernel, at the side of one nostril:
The first person whom she introduced him to, at that island of fauteuils and androids, now getting up from around a low table with a copper ashbowl for hub, was the promised belle-sœur, a short plumpish lady in governess gray, very oval-faced, with bobbed auburn hair, a sallowish complexion, smoke-blue unsmiling eyes, and a fleshy little excrescence, resembling a ripe maize kernel, at the side of one nostril, added to its hypercritical curve by an afterthought of nature as not seldom happens when a Russian’s face is mass-produced. The next outstretched hand belonged to a handsome, tall, remarkably substantial and cordial nobleman who could be none other than the Prince Gremin of the preposterous libretto, and whose strong honest clasp made Van crave for a disinfecting fluid to wash off contact with any of her husband’s public parts. But as Ada, beaming again, made fluttery introductions with an invisible wand, the person Van had grossly mistaken for Andrey Vinelander was transformed into Yuzlik, the gifted director of the ill-fated Don Juan picture. ‘Vasco de Gama, I presume,’ Yuzlik murmured. Beside him, ignored by him, unknown by name to Ada, and now long dead of dreary anonymous ailments, stood in servile attitudes the two agents of Lemorio, the flamboyant comedian (a bearded boor of exceptional, and now also forgotten, genius, whom Yuzlik passionately wanted for his next picture). Lemorio had stood him up twice before, in Rome and San Remo, each time sending him for ‘preliminary contact’ those two seedy, incompetent, virtually insane, people with whom by now Yuzlik had nothing more to discuss, having exhausted everything, topical gossip, Lemorio’s sex life, Hoole’s hooliganism, as well as the hobbies of his, Yuzlik’s, three sons and those of their, the agents’, adopted child, a lovely Eurasian lad, who had recently been slain in a night-club fracas — which closed that subject. Ada had welcomed Yuzlik’s unexpected reality in the lounge of the Bellevue not only as a counterpoise to the embarrassment and the deceit, but also because she hoped to sidle into What Daisy Knew; however, besides having no spells left in the turmoil of her spirit for business blandishments, she soon understood that if Lemorio were finally engaged, he would want her part for one of his mistresses. (3.8)
Darkbloom ('Notes to Ada'): libretto: that of the opera Eugene Onegin, a travesty of Pushkin’s poem.
In his essay The Enmity and Friendship of the Elements Sologub quotes (not quite correctly) a line from Lermontov's poem Valerik (1840), Pod nebom mesta mnogo vsem (Beneath the sky there is a lot of place for all):
В дружбе со стихиями живёт наш враг, и стихии, вольные и вечные, стали его верными союзниками. Мы не можем расторгнуть этого союза. Но никто не мешает и нам войти в него.
…Небо ясно,
Под небом места хватит всем.
Lermontov's poem Valerik brings to mind Valerio, a ginger-haired waiter at the Monaco (a good restaurant in the entresol of a tall Manhattan house crowned by Van's penthouse apartment):
Next day, February 5, around nine p.m., Manhattan (winter) time, on the way to Dan’s lawyer, Demon noted — just as he was about to cross Alexis Avenue, an ancient but insignificant acquaintance, Mrs Arfour, advancing toward him, with her toy terrier, along his side of the street. Unhesitatingly, Demon stepped off the curb, and having no hat to raise (hats were not worn with raincloaks and besides he had just taken a very exotic and potent pill to face the day’s ordeal on top of a sleepless journey), contented himself — quite properly — with a wave of his slim umbrella; recalled with a paint dab of delight one of the gargle girls of her late husband; and smoothly passed in front of a slow-clopping horse-drawn vegetable cart, well out of the way of Mrs R4. But precisely in regard to such a contingency, Fate had prepared an alternate continuation. As Demon rushed (or, in terms of the pill, sauntered) by the Monaco, where he had often lunched, it occurred to him that his son (whom he had been unable to ‘contact’) might still be living with dull little Cordula de Prey in the penthouse apartment of that fine building. He had never been up there — or had he? For a business consultation with Van? On a sun-hazed terrace? And a clouded drink? (He had, that’s right, but Cordula was not dull and had not been present.)
With the simple and, combinationally speaking, neat, thought that, after all, there was but one sky (white, with minute multicolored optical sparks), Demon hastened to enter the lobby and catch the lift which a ginger-haired waiter had just entered, with breakfast for two on a wiggle-wheel table and the Manhattan Times among the shining, ever so slightly scratched, silver cupolas. Was his son still living up there, automatically asked Demon, placing a piece of nobler metal among the domes. Si, conceded the grinning imbecile, he had lived there with his lady all winter.
‘Then we are fellow travelers,’ said Demon inhaling not without gourmand anticipation the smell of Monaco’s coffee, exaggerated by the shadows of tropical weeds waving in the breeze of his brain.
On that memorable morning, Van, after ordering breakfast, had climbed out of his bath and donned a strawberry-red terrycloth roalbe when he thought he heard Valerio’s voice from the adjacent parlor. Thither he padded, humming tunelessly, looking forward to another day of increasing happiness (with yet another uncomfortable little edge smoothed away, another raw kink in the past so refashioned as to fit into the new pattern of radiance). (2.10)
Darkbloom ('Notes to Ada'): R4: ‘rook four’, a chess indication of position (pun on the woman’s name).
Valerio is an elderly Roman:
Lucette had gone (leaving a curt note with her room number at the Winster Hotel for Young Ladies) when our two lovers, now weak-legged and decently robed, sat down to a beautiful breakfast (Ardis' crisp bacon! Ardis' translucent honey!) brought up in the lift by Valerio, a ginger-haired elderly Roman, always ill-shaven and gloomy, but a dear old boy (he it was who, having procured neat Rose last June, was being paid to keep her strictly for Veen and Dean). (2.6)
According to Teffi, after he shaved off his mustache and beard, Sologub began to look like a Roman of the period of decline:
Сологуб сбрил усы и бороду, и все стали говорить, что он похож на римлянина времен упадка. Он ходил как гость по новым комнатам, надменно сжимал бритые губы, щурил глаза, искал гаснущие сны.
The action in Ada takes place on Demonia, Earth's twin planet also known as Antiterra. According to Teffi, Sologub wanted to be demonic:
Когда мы познакомились ближе и как бы подружились (насколько возможна была дружба с этим странным человеком), я все искала к нему ключ, хотела до конца понять его и не могла. Чувствовалась в нем затаенная нежность, которой он стыдился и которую не хотел показывать. Вот, например, прорвалось у него как-то о школьниках, его учениках: "поднимают лапки, замазанные чернилами". Значит, любил он этих детей, если так ласково сказал. Но это проскользнуло случайно.
Вспоминала его стихи, где даже смех благословляется, потому что он детский.
Я верю в творящего Бога,
В святые завесы небес,
Я верю, что явлено много
Бездумному миру чудес.
Но высшее чудо на свете,
Великий источник утех --
Блаженно-невинные дети,
Их тихий и радостный смех.
Да, нежность души своей он прятал. Он хотел быть демоничным.