During her second road trip with Humbert Humbert (the narrator and main character in VN's novel Lolita, 1955) across the USA, Lolita falls ill and on Tuesday, June 28, 1949, is hospitalized in Elphinstone (a small town in the Rocky Mountains). Describing Lolita's hospitalization, Humbert Humbert mentions Aurora (the goddess of dawn in Roman mythology and Latin poetry):
Mrs. Hays, the brisk, briskly rouged, blue-eyed widow who ran the motor court, asked me if I were Swiss perchance, because her sister had married a Swiss ski instructor. I was, whereas my daughter happened to be half Irish. I registered, Hays gave me the key and a twinkling smile, and, still twinkling, showed me where to park the car; Lo crawled out and shivered a little: the luminous evening air was decidedly crisp. Upon entering the cabin, she sat down on a chair at a card table, buried her face in the crook of her arm and said she felt awful. Shamming, I thought, shamming, no doubt, to evade my caresses; I was passionately parched; but she began to whimper in an unusually dreary way when I attempted to fondle her. Lolita ill. Lolita dying. Her skin was scalding hot! I took her temperature, orally, then looked up a scribbled formula I fortunately had in a jotter and after laboriously reducing the, meaningless to me, degrees Fahrenheit to the intimate centigrade of my childhood, found she had 40.4, which at least made sense. Hysterical little nymphs might, I knew, run up all kinds of temperatureeven exceeding a fatal count. And I would have given her a sip of hot spiced wine, and two aspirins, and kissed the fever away, if, upon an examination of her lovely uvula, one of the gems of her body, I had not seen that it was a burning red. I undressed her. Her breath was bittersweet. Her brown rose tasted of blood. She was shaking from head to toe. She complained of a painful stiffness in the upper vertebraeand I thought of poliomyelitis as any American parent would. Giving up all hope of intercourse, I wrapped her in a laprobe and carried her into the car. Kind Mrs. Hays in the meantime had alerted the local doctor. “You are lucky it happened here,” she said; for not only was Blue the best man in the district, but the Elphinstone hospital was as modern as modern could be, despite its limited capacity. With a heterosexual Erlkönig in pursuit, thither I drove, half-blinded by a royal sunset on the lowland side and guided by a little old woman, a portable witch, perhaps his daughter, whom Mrs. Hays had lent me, and whom I was never to see again. Dr. Blue, whose learning, no doubt, was infinitely inferior to his reputation, assured me it was a virus infection, and when I alluded to her comparatively recent flu, curtly said this was another bug, he had forty such cases on his hands; all of which sounded like the “ague” of the ancients. I wondered if I should mention, with a casual chuckle, that my fifteen-year-old daughter had had a minor accident while climbing an awkward fence with her boy friend, but knowing I was drunk, I decided to withhold the information till later if necessary. To an unsmiling blond bitch of a secretary I gave my daughter’s age as “practically sixteen.” While I was not looking, my child was taken away from me!
This was Tuesday, and Wednesday or Thursday, splendidly reacting like the darling she was to some “serum” (sparrow’s sperm or dugong’s dung), she was much better, and the doctor said that in a couple of days she would be “skipping” again. (2.22)
Aurora oder Morgenröte im Aufgang ("Aurora, or Morning Glow, Ascending, 1612) is the first and best-known philosophical and mystical book by Jakob Böhme (a German Christian mystic and shoemaker from Görlitz, the most eastern German town in Sachsen, on the Polish border). In the Russian tradition, the title of Böhme's book is sometimes translated as Avrora, ili utrennyaya zvezda v voskhozhdenii. Zvezda means in Russian "star." According to John Ray, Jr. (the author of the foreword to Humbert Humbert's manuscript), Mrs. “Richard F. Schiller” (Lolita's married name) outlived Humbert Humbert (who had died in legal captivity, of coronary thrombosis, on November 16, 1952, a few days before his trial was scheduled to start) by forty days and died in childbed, giving birth to a stillborn girl, on Christmas Day 1952, in Gray Star, a settlement in the remotest Northwest:
For the benefit of old-fashioned readers who wish to follow the destinies of “real” people beyond the “true” story, a few details may be given as received from Mr. “Windmuller,” of “Ramsdale,” who desires his identity suppressed so that “the long shadows of this sorry and sordid business” should not reach the community to which he is proud to belong. His daughter, “Louise,” is by now a college sophomore. “Mona Dahl” is a student in Paris. “Rita” has recently married the proprietor of a hotel in Florida. Mrs. “Richard F. Schiller” died in childbed, giving birth to a stillborn girl, on Christmas Day 1952, in Gray Star, a settlement in the remotest Northwest. ‘Vivian Darkbloom’ has written a biography, ‘My Cue,’ to be published shortly, and critics who have perused the manuscript call it her best book. The caretakers of the various cemeteries involved report that no ghosts walk.
In the Russian Lolita (1967), zhena Richarda Skillera (the wife of Richard Schiller) dies v dalyokom severo-zapadnom poselenii Seroy Zvezde:
В угоду старомодным читателям, интересующимся дальнейшей судьбой «живых образцов» за горизонтом «правдивой повести», могу привести некоторые указания, полученные от г-на «Виндмюллера» из «Рамздэля», который пожелал остаться неназванным, дабы «длинная тень прискорбной и грязной истории» не дотянулась до того городка, в котором он имеет честь проживать. Его дочь «Луиза» сейчас студентка-второкурсница. «Мона Даль» учится в университете в Париже. «Рита» недавно вышла замуж за хозяина гостиницы во Флориде. Жена «Ричарда Скиллера» умерла от родов, разрешившись мертвой девочкой, 25-го декабря 1952 г., в далеком северо-западном поселении Серой Звезде. Г-жа Вивиан Дамор-Блок (Дамор – по сцене, Блок – по одному из первых мужей) написала биографию бывшего товарища под каламбурным заглавием «Кумир мой», которая скоро должна выйти в свет; критики, уже ознакомившиеся с манускриптом, говорят, что это лучшая ее вещь. Сторожа кладбищ, так или иначе упомянутых в мемуарах «Г. Г.», не сообщают, встает ли кто из могилы.
But it seems that, actually, Lolita dies of ague in the Elphinstone hospital on July 4, 1949, and everything what happens after her sudden death (Lolita's escape from the hospital with Quilty, Humbert's affair with Rita, Lolita's marriage and pregnancy, and the murder of Clare Quilty) was invented by Humbert Humbert (whose "real" name is John Ray, Jr.). Describing his visits to the Elphinstone hospital, Humbert Humbert mentions the flowers that he brought Lolita:
Of the eight times I visited her, the last one alone remains sharply engraved on my mind. It had been a great feat to come for I felt all hollowed out by the infection that by then was at work on me too. None will know the strain it was to carry that bouquet, that load of love, those books that I had traveled sixty miles to buy: Browning’s Dramatic Works, The history of Dancing, Clowns and Columbines, The Russian Ballet, Flowers of the Rockies, the Theatre Guild Anthology, Tennis - by Helen Wills, who had won the National Junior Girl Singles at the age of fifteen. As I was staggering up to the door of my daughter’s thirteen-dollar-a-day private room, Mary Lore, the beastly young part-time nurse who had taken an unconcealed dislike to me, emerged with a finished breakfast tray, placed it with a quick crash on a chair in the corridor, and, fundament jigging, shot back into the room - probably to warn her poor little Dolores that the tyrannical old father was creeping up on crepe soles, with books and bouquet: the latter I had composed of wild flowers and beautiful leaves gathered with my own gloved hands on a mountain pass at sunrise (I hardly slept at all that fateful week).
Feeding my Carmencita well? Idly I glanced at the tray. On a yolk-stained plate there was a crumpled envelope. It had contained something, since one edge was torn, but there was no address on itnothing at all, save a phony armorial design with “Ponderosa Lodge” in green letters; thereupon I performed a chassé-croisé with Mary, who was in the act of bustling out again - wonderful how fast they move and how little they do, those rumpy young nurses. She glowered at the envelope I had put back, uncrumpled.
“You better not touch,” she said, nodding directionally. “Could burn your fingers.”
Below my dignity to rejoin. All I said was:
“Je croyais que c’était un bill - not a billet doux .” Then, entering the sunny room, to Lolita: “Bonjour, mon petit. ”
“Dolores,” said Mary Lore, entering with me, past me, though me, the plump whore, and blinking, and starting to fold very rapidly a white flannel blanket as she blinked: “Dolores, your pappy thinks you are getting letters from my boy friend. It’s me (smugly tapping herself on the small glit cross she wore) gets them. And my pappy can parlay-voo as well as yours.”
She left the room. Dolores, so rosy and russet, lips freshly painted, hair brilliantly brushed, bare arms straightened out on neat coverleat, lay innocently beaming at me or nothing. On the bed table, next to a paper napkin and a pencil, her topaz ring burned in the sun.
“What gruesome funeral flowers,” she said. “Thanks all the same. But do you mind very much cutting out the French? It annoys everybody.” (2.22)
The chief physician at the Elphinstone hospital, Dr. Blue, and gruesome funeral flowers (as Lolita calls Humbert's bouquet) bring to mind the blue flower of Novalis (penname of Friedrich von Hardenberg, a German poet and novelist, 1772-1801) and the Romantics. On 17 November 1794, twenty-two-year-old von Hardenberg met twelve-year-old Sophie von Kühn at Grüningen Castle and fell in love with her at first sight. Novalis and Sophie became engaged on Sophie's thirteenth birthday 17 March 1795. In November 1795 Sophie fell ill, apparently with hepatitis and pulmonary tuberculosis, and her illness continued until her death less than two years later. Between May and July 1796, Sophie underwent three serious surgeries (at the time still performed without anesthesia) in Jena by Dr Johann Stark the Elder (a namesake of John Ray, Jr.). Sophie died on March 19, 1797, two days after her fifteenth birthday. Dolores Haze (Lolita's full name) was born on January 1, 1935. On January 1, 1953, a week after her death in Gray Star, "Mrs. Richard F. Schiller" would be eighteen. An adjective used by Lolita, gruesome is related to German grausam. Grau is German for gray (cf. Gray Star). Stark (cf. Dr Johann Stark the Elder, the Jena surgeon who operated Sophie von Kühn) means in German "strong." Describing his childhood romance with Annabel Leigh, Humbert Humbert says that he was a strong lad and survived:
Furthermore, since the idea of time plays such a magic part in the matter, the student should not be surprised to learn that there must be a gap of several years, never less than ten I should say, generally thirty or forty, and as many as ninety in a few known cases, between maiden and man to enable the latter to come under a nymphet’s spell. It is a question of focal adjustment, of a certain distance that the inner eye thrills to surmount, and a certain contrast that the mind perceives with a gasp of perverse delight. When I was a child and she was a child, my little Annabel was no nymphet to me; I was her equal, a faunlet in my own right, on that same enchanted island of time; but today, in September 1952, after twenty-nine years have elapsed, I think I can distinguish in her the initial fateful elf in my life. We loved each other with a premature love, marked by a fierceness that so often destroys adult lives. I was a strong lad and survived; but the poison was in the wound, and the wound remained ever open, and soon I found myself maturing amid a civilization which allows a man of twenty-five to court a girl of sixteen but not a girl of twelve. (1.5)
Humbert Humbert's first love, Annabel Leigh died of typhus in Corfu at the beginning of 1924. The founder and first leader of the Soviet Union, Vladimir Lenin (born Ul'yanov, 1870-1924) died on January 21, 1924. The author of a poem on Lenin's death (composed when Lenin was still alive and meant as the new text of Mozart's Requiem), Valeriy Bryusov (a Russian poet and novelist, 1873-1924) outlived Lenin by almost nine months and died on October 9, 1924. Bryusov's novel Ognennyi angel ("The Fiery Angel," 1907) is set in the 16th century Germany. Novalis brings to mind Bryusov's mistress Ada Adalis (a Russian and Soviet poet, prose writer and translator, born Adelina Viskovatov, 1900-1969). After the 1905 Revolution, Adelina's father, an engineer, was banished from St. Petersburg (Adalis's home city) and died of pneumonia on his way to Siberia. Soon after his death, Adelina's mother, a ballerina, commited suicide. Little Adelina was raised by her Jewish aunts in Odessa. In her memoir essay on Bryusov, Geroy truda ("The Hero of Toil," 1925), Marina Tsvetaev (a poet of genius, 1892-1941, the wife of a double agent who returned to Soviet Russia in the late 1930s and perished there) mentions Adalis:
Москва, начало декабря 1920 г.
Несколько дней спустя, читая «Джунгли».
— Марина! Вы знаете — кто Шер-Хан? — Брюсов! — Тоже хромой и одинокий, и у него там тоже Адалис. (Приводит:) «А старый Шер-Хан ходил и открыто принимал лесть»… Я так в этом узнала Брюсова! А Адалис — приблуда, из молодых волков. (Part Two)
In a conversation with her mother, Marina Tsvetaev's eight-year-old daughter Alya (Ariadna Efron, 1912-1975) compared Bryusov to Shere Khan, the tiger in Kipling's Jungle Book, and Adalis, to a young wolf from Shere Khan's retinue. A playwrite and pornographer whom Humbert murders for abducting Lolita from the Elphinstone hospital, Clare Quilty "quotes" Kipling:
I slapped down his outstretched hand and he managed to knock over a box on a low table near him. It ejected a handful of cigarettes.
“Here they are,” he said cheerfully. “You recall Kipling: une femme est une femme, mais un Caporal est une cigarette? Now we need matches.”
“Quilty,” I said. “I want you to concentrate. You are going to die in a moment. The hereafter for all we know may be an eternal state of excruciating insanity. You smoked your last cigarette yesterday. Concentrate. Try to understand what is happening to you.”
He kept taking the Drome cigarette apart and munching bits of it. (2.35)
In her memoir essay Marina Tsvetaeva mentions Bryusov's obutoe litso (shod face):
Уже по написании этих строк. Одна моя знакомая, на мой вопрос, какое у него было лицо, с гениальностью женской непосредственности: «Не знаю, какое-то... обутое».
A German mystic, Jakob Böhme was a shoemaker by vocation. In her memoir essay, Marina Tsvetaev compares Bryusov to a wolf:
Приз — именной золотой жетон с черным Пегасом — непосредственно Брюсовым — из руки в руку — вручен. Хотя не в рукопожатии, но руки встретились! И я, продевая его сквозь цепочку браслета, громко и весело:
— Значит, я теперь — премированный щенок? Ответный смех залы и — добрая — внезапная — волчья — улыбка Брюсова. «Улыбка» — условность, просто внезапное обнаружение и такое же исчезновение зубов. Не улыбка? Улыбка! Только не наша, волчья. (Оскал, осклаб, ощер.)
Тут я впервые догадалась, что Брюсов — волк. (Part One)
Humbert Wolfe (1885-1940) was an Italian-born English poet who died on his fifty-fifth birthday (January 5, 1940). In her memoir essay, Marina Tsvetaev describes the evening of women's poetry in Moscow in February 1921 in which she and Adalis (who was nine-months pregnant and behind the curtain feared that labor has already started) participated. When Humbert Humbert visits Lolita (now married to Dick Schiller) in Coalmont, she is frankly and hugely pregnant:
I got out of the car and slammed its door. How matter-of-fact, how square that slam sounded in the void of the sunless day! Woof, commented the dog perfunctorily. I pressed the bell button, it vibrated through my whole system. Personne. Je resonne. Repersonne. From what depth this re-nonsense? Woof, said the dog. A rush and a shuffle, and woosh-woof went the door.
Couple of inches taller. Pink-rimmed glasses. New, heaped-up hairdo, new ears. How simple! The moment, the death I had kept conjuring up for three years was as simple as a bit of dry wood. She was frankly and hugely pregnant. Her head looked smaller (only two seconds had passed really, but let me give them as much wooden duration as life can stand), and her pale-freckled cheeks were hollowed, and her bare shins and arms had lost all their tan, so that the little hairs showed. She wore a brown, sleeveless cotton dress and sloppy felt slippers. (2.29)
Telling Humbert Humbert about her life after her escape from the Elphinstone hospital with Clare Quilty, Lolita calls Elphinstone "Elephant:"
“Sit down,” she said, audibly striking her flanks with her palms. I relapsed into the black rocker.
“So you betrayed me? Where did you go? Where is he now?”
She took from the mantelpiece a concave glossy snapshot. Old woman in white, stout, beaming, bowlegged, very short dress; old man in his shirtsleeves, drooping mustache, watch chain. Her in-laws. Living with Dick’s brother’s family in Juneau.
“Sure you don’t want to smoke?”
She was smoking herself. First time I saw her doing it. Streng verboten under Humbert the Terrible. Gracefully, in a blue mist, Charlotte Haze rose from her grave. I would find him through Uncle Ivory if she refused.
“Betrayed you? No.” She directed the dart of her cigarette, index rapidly tapping upon it, toward the hearth exactly as her mother used to do, and then, like her mother, oh my God, with her fingernail scratched and removed a fragment of cigarette paper from her underlip. No. She had not betrayed me. I was among friends. Edusa had warned her that Cue liked little girls, had been almost jailed once, in fact (nice fact), and he knew she knew. Yes… Elbow in palm, puff, smile, exhaled smoke, darting gesture. Waxing reminiscent. He saw - smiling - through everything and everybody, because he was not like me and her but a genius. A great guy. Full of fun. Had rocked with laughter when she confessed about me and her, and said he had thought so. It was quite safe, under the circumstances, to tell him…
Well, Cue - they all called him Cue
Her camp five years ago. Curious coincidence… took her to a dude ranch about a day’s drive from Elephant (Elphinstone). Named? Oh, some silly name - Duk Duk Ranch - you know just plain silly - but it did not matter now, anyway, because the place had vanished and disintegrated. Really, she meant, I could not imagine how utterly lush that ranch was, she meant it had everything but everything, even an indoor waterfall. Did I remember the red-haired guy we (“we” was good) had once had some tennis with? Well, the place really belonged to Red’s brother, but he had turned it over to Cue for the summer. When Cue and she came, the others had them actually go through a coronation ceremony and then - a terrific ducking, as when you cross the Equator. You know.
Her eyes rolled in synthetic resignation.
“Go on, please.”
Well. The idea was he would take her in September to Hollywood and arrange a tryout for her, a bit part in the tennis-match scene of a movie picture based on a play of his - Golden Guts - and perhaps even have her double one of its sensational starlets on the Klieg-struck tennis court. Alas, it never came to that.
“Where is the hog now?”
He was not a hog. He was a great guy in many respects. But it was all drink and drugs. And, of course, he was a complete freak in sex matters, and his friends were his slaves. I just could not imagine (I, Humbert, could not imagine!) what they all did at Duk Duk Ranch. She refused to take part because she loved him, and he threw her out.
“What things?”
“Oh, weird, filthy, fancy things. I mean, he had two girls and tow boys, and three or four men, and the idea was for all of us to tangle in the nude while an old woman took movie pictures.” (Sade’s Justine was twelve at the start.)
“What things exactly?”
“Oh, things… Oh, I really I” - she uttered the “I” as a subdued cry while she listened to the source of the ache, and for lack of words spread the five fingers of her angularly up-and-down-moving hand. No, she gave it up, she refused to go into particulars with that baby inside her.
That made sense.
“It is of no importance now,” she said pounding a gray cushing with her fist and then lying back, belly up, on the divan. “Crazy things, filthy things. I said no, I’m just not going to [she used, in all insouciance really, a disgusting slang term which, in a literal French translation, would be souffler] your beastly boys, because I want only you. Well, he kicked me out.”
There was not much else to tell. That winter 1949, Fay and she had found jobs. For almost two years she had - oh, just drifted, oh, doing some restaurant work in small places, and then she had met Dick. No, she did not know where the other was. In New York, she guessed. Of course, he was so famous she would have found him at once if she had wanted. Fay had tried to get back to the Ranch - and it just was not there any more - it had burned to the ground, nothing remained, just a charred heap of rubbish. It was so strange, so strange. (ibid.)
In her memoir essay Mat' i muzyka ("Mother and Music," 1934) Marina Tsvetaev says that, as a child, she loved piano keys and points out that the German word for ivory, Elfenbein, combines an elephant and and an elf:
Но клавиши — я любила: за черноту и белизну (чуть желтизну!), за черноту, такую явно, — за белизну (чуть желтизну!), такую тайно-грустную, за то, что одни широкие, а другие узкие (обиженные!), за то, что по ним, не сдвигаясь с места, можно, как по лестнице, что эта лестница — из-под рук! — и что от этой лестницы сразу ледяные ручьи — ледяные лестницы ручьев вдоль спины — и жар в глазах — тот самый жар в долине Дагестана из Андрюшиной хрестоматии.
И за то, что белые, при нажиме, явно веселые, а черные — сразу грустные, верно — грустные, настолько верно, что, если нажму — точно себе на глаза нажму, сразу выжму из глаз — слезы.
И за самый нажим: за возможность, только нажав, сразу начать тонуть, и, пока не отпустишь, тонуть без конца, без дна, — и даже когда отпустишь!
За то, что с виду гладь, а под гладью — глубь, как в воде, как в Оке, но глаже и глубже Оки, за то, что под рукой — пропасть, за то, что эта пропасть — из-под рук, за то, что, с места не сходя, — падаешь вечно.
За вероломство этой клавишной глади, готовой раздаться при первом прикосновении — и поглотить.
За страсть — нажать, за страх — нажать: нажав, разбудить — все. (То же самое чувствовал, в 1918 году, каждый солдат в усадьбе.)
И за то, что это — траур: материнская, в полоску блузка того конца лета, когда следом за телеграммой: «Дедушка тихо скончался» — явилась и она сама, заплаканная и все же улыбающаяся, с первым словом ко мне: «Муся, тебя дедушка очень любил».
За прохладное «ivoire», мерцающее «Elfenbein», баснословное «слоновая кость» (как слона и эльфа — совместить?).
A word used by Marina Tsvetaev, ivoire (French for ivory) reminds one of Dr. Ivor Quilty (the Ramsdale dentist, Clare's uncle from whom Humbert finds out Clare Quilty's address). The title of Marina Tsvetaev's essay, Mat' i muzyka, brings to mind mat'-i-machekha (the Russian name of coltsfoot, the plant Tussilago farfara). Mat' means in Russian "mother," and machekha means "stepmother." According to Humbert Himbert, he once found Lolita reading a book for young people about a gloomy girl Marion and her stepmother who turned out to be, against all expectations, a young, gay, understanding redhead:
Mid-twentieth century ideas concerning child-parent relationship have been considerably tainted by the scholastic rigmarole and standardized symbols of the psychoanalytic racket, but I hope I am addressing myself to unbiased readers. Once when Avis’s father had honked outside to signal papa had come to take his pet home, I felt obliged to invite him into the parlor, and he sat down for a minute, and while we conversed, Avis, a heavy, unattractive, affectionate child, drew up to him and eventually perched plumply on his knee. Now, I do not remember if I have mentioned that Lolita always had an absolutely enchanting smile for strangers, a tender furry slitting of the eyes, a dreamy sweet radiance of all her features which did not mean a thing of course, but was so beautiful, so endearing that one found it hard to reduce such sweetness to but a magic gene automatically lighting up her face in atavistic token of some ancient rite of welcomehospitable prostitution, the coarse reader may say. Well, there she stood while Mr. Byrd twirled his hat and talked, andyes, look how stupid of me, I have left out the main characteristic of the famous Lolita smile, namely: while the tender, nectared, dimpled brightness played, it was never directed at the stranger in the room but hung in its own remote flowered void, so to speak, or wandered with myopic softness over chance objectsand this is what was happening now: while fat Avis sidled up to her papa, Lolita gently beamed at a fruit knife that she fingered on the edge of the table, whereon she leaned, many miles away from me. Suddenly, as Avis clung to her father’s neck and ear while, with a casual arm, the man enveloped his lumpy and large offspring, I saw Lolita’s smile lose all its light and become a frozen little shadow of itself, and the fruit knife slipped off the table and struck her with its silver handle a freak blow on the ankle which made her gasp, and crouch head forward, and then, jumping on one leg, her face awful with the preparatory grimace which children hold till the tears gush, she was goneto be followed at once and consoled in the kitchen by Avis who had such a wonderful fat pink dad and a small chubby brother, and a brand-new baby sister, and a home, and two grinning dogs, and Lolita had nothing. And I have a neat pendant to that little scenealso in a Beardsley setting. Lolita, who had been reading near the fire, stretched herself, and then inquired, her elbow up, with a grunt: “Where is she buried anyway?” “Who?” “Oh, you know, my murdered mummy.” “And you know where her grave is,” I said controlling myself, whereupon I named the cemeteryjust outside Ramsdale, between the railway tracks and Lakeview Hill. “Moreover,” I added, “the tragedy of such an accident is somewhat cheapened by the epithet you saw fit to apply to it. If you really wish to triumph in your mind over the idea of death” “Ray,” said Lo for hurrah, and languidly left the room, and for a long while I stared with smarting eyes into the fire. Then I picked up her book. It was some trash for young people. There was a gloomy girl Marion, and there was her stepmother who turned out to be, against all expectations, a young, gay, understanding redhead who explained to Marion that Marion’s dead mother had really been a heroic woman since she had deliberately dissimulated her great love for Marion because she was dying, and did not want her child to miss her. I did not rush up to her room with cries. I always preferred the mental hygiene of noninterference. Now, squirming and pleading with my own memory, I recall that on this and similar occasions, it was always my habit and method to ignore Lolita’s states of mind while comforting my own base self. When my mother, in a livid wet dress, under the tumbling mist (so I vividly imagined her), had run panting ecstatically up that ridge above Moulinet to be felled there by a thunderbolt, I was but an infant, and in retrospect no yearnings of the accepted kind could I ever graft upon any moment of my youth, no matter how savagely psychotherapists heckled me in my later periods of depression. But I admit that a man of my power of imagination cannot plead personal ignorance of universal emotions. I may also have relied too much on the abnormally chill relations between Charlotte and her daughter. But the awful point of the whole argument is this. It had become gradually clear to my conventional Lolita during our singular and bestial cohabitation that even the most miserable of family lives was better than the parody of incest, which, in the long run, was the best I could offer the waif. (2.32)
Earlier in the same chapter Humbert Humbert says that he once overheard Eva Rosen say to Lolita: "it is better to die, than hear Milton Pinski talk about music:"
And I have still other smothered memories, now unfolding themselves into limbless monsters of pain. Once, in a sunset-ending street of Beardsley, she turned to little Eva Rosen (I was taking both nymphets to a concert and walking behind them so close as almost to touch them with my person), she turned to Eva, and so very serenely and seriously, in answer to something the other had said about its being better to die than hear Milton Pinski, some local schoolboy she knew, talk about music, my Lolita remarked:
“You know, what's so dreadful about dying is that you are completely on your own;” and it struck me, as my automaton knees went up and down, that I simply did not know a thing about my darling's mind and that quite possibly, behind the awful juvenile clichés, there was in her a garden and a twilight, and a palace gate — dim and adorable regions which happened to be lucidly and absolutely forbidden to me, in my polluted rags and miserable convulsions; for I often noticed that living as we did, she and I, in a world of total evil, we would become strangely embarrassed whenever I tried to discuss something she and an older friend, she and a parent, she and a real healthy sweetheart, I and Annabel, Lolita and a sublime, purified, analyzed, deified Harold Haze, might have discussed — an abstract idea, a painting, stippled Hopkins or shorn Baudelaire, God or Shakespeare, anything of genuine kind. Good will! She would mail her vulnerability in trite brashness and boredom, whereas I, using for my desperately detached comments an artificial tone of voice that set my own last teeth on edge, provoked my audience to such outbursts of rudeness as made any further conversation impossible, oh my poor, bruised child. (ibid.)
According to Humbert Humbert, Lolita said “Ray” for hurrah. Actually, she called Humbert Humbert by his surname. In her essay Dva lesnykh tsarya ("The Two Forest Kings," 1933) Marina Tsvetaev meticulously analizes Vasiliy Zhukovski's Russian translation (1818) of Goethe's ballad Erlkönig (1782) and compares Zhukovski's version to the original. Describing Lolita's hospitalization in Elphinstone, Humbert Humbert mentions a heterosexual Erlkönig in pursuit and calls a little old woman whom Mrs. Hays had lent him "a portable witch, perhaps Erlkönig's daughter" (one of Erlkönig's cousins in the Russian Lolita). At the end of her essay The Two Forest Kings Marina Tsvetaev says that there are things bigger than art, more frightening than art:
Лесной Царь Жуковского (сам Жуковский) бесконечно добрее: к ребенку добрее, - ребенку у него не больно, а только душно, к отцу добрее - горестная, но все же естественная смерть, к нам добрее - ненарушенный порядок вещей. Ибо допустить хотя бы на секунду, что Лесной Царь есть, - сместить нас со всех наших мест. Так же - прискорбный, но бывалый, случай. И само видение добрее: старик с бородой, дедушка, «бирюзовы струи»... Даже удивляешься, чего ребенок испугался?
(Разве что темной короны, разве что силы любви?) Страшная сказка на ночь. Страшная, но сказка. Страшная сказка нестрашного дедушки. После страшной сказки все-таки можно спать.
Странная сказка совсем не дедушки. После страшной гётевской не-сказки жить нельзя - так, как жили (в тот лес! Домой!).
...Добрее, холоднее, величественнее, ирреальнее. Борода величественнее хвоста, дочери, узренные, и величественнее, и холоднее, и ирреальнее, чем дочери нянчащие, вся вещь Жуковского на пороге жизни и сна.
Видение Гёте целиком жизнь или целиком сон, все равно, как это называется, раз одно страшнее другого, и дело не в названии, а в захвате дыхания.
Что больше - искусство? Спорно.
Но есть вещи больше, чем искусство.
Страшнее, чем искусство.
At the end of his manuscript Humbert Humbert says that the refuge of art is the only immortality Lolita and he may share:
This then is my story. I have reread it. It has bits of marrow sticking to it, and blood, and beautiful bright-green flies. At this or that twist of it I feel my slippery self eluding me, gliding into deeper and darker waters than I care to probe. I have camouflaged what I could so as not to hurt people. And I have toyed with many pseudonyms for myself before I hit on a particularly apt one. There are in my notes “Otto Otto” and “Mesmer Mesmer” and “Lambert Lambert,” but for some reason I think my choice expresses the nastiness best.
When I started, fifty-six days ago, to write Lolita, first in the psychopathic ward for observation, and then in this well-heated, albeit tombal, seclusion, I thought I would use these notes in toto at my trial, to save not my head, of course, but my soul. In mid-composition, however, I realized that I could not parade living Lolita. I still may use parts of this memoir in hermetic sessions, but publication is to be deferred.
For reasons that may appear more obvious than they really are, I am opposed to capital punishment; this attitude will be, I trust, shared by the sentencing judge. Had I come before myself, I would have given Humbert at least thirty-five years for rape, and dismissed the rest of the charges. But even so, Dolly Schiller will probably survive me by many years. The following decision I make with all the legal impact and support of a signed testament: I wish this memoir to be published only when Lolita is no longer alive.
Thus, neither of us is alive when the reader opens this book. But while the blood still throbs through my writing hand, you are still as much part of blessed matter as I am, and I can still talk to you from here to Alaska. Be true to your Dick. Do not let other fellows touch you. Do not talk to strangers. I hope you will love your baby. I hope it will be a boy. That husband of yours, I hope, will always treat you well, because otherwise my specter shall come at him, like black smoke, like a demented giant, and pull him apart nerve by nerve. And do not pity C. Q. One had to choose between him and H. H., and one wanted H. H. to exist at least a couple of months longer, so as to have him make you live in the minds of later generations. I am thinking of aurochs and angels, the secret of durable pigments, prophetic sonnets, the refuge of art. And this is the only immortality you and I may share, my Lolita. (2.36)
According to Humbert Humbert, it took him fifty-six days (eight weeks) to write Lolita. But only fifty-two days pass between Septtember 25, 1952 (the day of Clare Quilty's murder and of Humbert Humbert’s arrest) and November 16, 1952 (the day of Humbert Humbert’s death in prison). 56 − 52 = 4. Chetyre dnya ("Four Days," 1877) is a story by Vsevolod Garshin (a Russian writer and art critic, 1855-1888). Dr. Blue and Gray Star bring to mind Garshin's story Krasnyi tsvetok ("The Red Flower," 1883). Morgenröte (cf. Jakob Böhme's Aurora oder Morgenröte im Aufgang) means in German "morning redness." Lolita's schoolmate at Beardsley, Eva Rosen is a redhead (and a nymphet, in Humbert Humbert's terminology). The surname Tsvetaev comes from tsvet, which means "color" and "flower, bloom." Lolita's best friend and confident at Beardsley, Mona Dahl had had an affair with a marine at the seaside:
Her girlfriends, whom I looked forward to meet, proved on the whole disappointing. There was Opal Something, and Linda Hall, and Avis Chapman, and Eva Rosen, and Mona Dahl (save one, all these names are approximations, of course). Opal was a bashful, formless, bespectacled, bepimpled creature who doted on Dolly who bullied her. With Linda Hall the school tennis champion, Dolly played singles at least twice a week: I suspect Linda was a true nymphet, but for some unknown reason she did not comewas perhaps not allowed to cometo our house; so I recall her only as a flash of natural sunshine on an indoor court. Of the rest, none had any claims to nymphetry except Eva Rosen. Avis ws a plump lateral child with hairy legs, while Mona, though handsome in a coarse sensual way and only a year older than my aging mistress, had obviously long ceased to be a nymphet, if she ever had been one. Eva Rosen, a displaced little person from France, was on the other hand a good example of a not strikingly beautiful child revealing to the perspicacious amateur some of the basic elements of nymphet charm, such as a perfect pubescent figure and lingering eyes and high cheekbones. Her glossy copper hair had Lolita’s silkiness, and the features of her delicate milky-white face with pink lips and silverfish eyelashes were less foxy than those of her likes - the great clan of intra-racial redheads; nor did she sport their green uniform but wore, as I remember her, a lot of black or cherry darka very smart black pullover, for instance, and high-heeled black shoes, and garnet-red fingernail polish. I spoke French to her (much to Lo’s disgust). The child’s tonalities were still admirably pure, but for school words and play words she resorted to current American and then a slight Brooklyn accent would crop up in her speech, which was amusing in a little Parisian who went to a select New England school with phoney British aspirations. Unfortunately, despite “that French kid’s uncle” being “a millionaire,” Lo dropped Eva for some reason before I had had time to enjoy in my modest way her fragrant presence in the Humbert open house. The reader knows what importance I attached to having a bevy of page girls, consolation prize nymphets, around my Lolita. For a while, I endeavored to interest my senses in Mona Dahl who was a good deal around, especially during the spring term when Lo and she got so enthusiastic about dramatics. I have often wondered what secrets outrageously treacherous Dolores Haze had imparted to Mona while blurting out to me by urgent and well-paid request various really incredible details concerning an affair that Mona had had with a marine at the seaside. It was characteristic of Lo that she chose for her closest chum that elegant, cold, lascivious, experienced young female whom I once heard (misheard, Lo swore) cheerfully say in the hallway to Lo - who had remarked that her (Lo’s) sweater was of virgin wool: “The only thing about you that is, kiddo…” She had a curiously husky voice, artificially waved dull dark hair, earrings, amber-brown prominent eyes and luscious lips. Lo said teachers had remonstrated with her on her loading herself with so much costume jewelry. Her hands trembled. She was burdened with a 150 I. Q. And I also knew she had a tremendous chocolate-brown mole on he womanish back which I inspected the night Lo and she had worn low-cut pastel-colored, vaporous dresses for a dance at the Butler Academy. (2.9)
The Russian protected cruiser Aurora (currently preserved as a museum ship in St. Petersburg) is most famous for her actions during the 1917 October Revolution (Lenin's coup), where she reportedly fired the shot that signaled the beginning of the attack on the Winter Palace. In his book Iz matrosskikh dosugov ("From a Sailor's Past-Time," 1843) Vladimir Dahl (the great Russian lexicographer who was a doctor and who was at Pushkin's deathbed on Feb. 10, 1837) mentions Counter Admiral Elphinstone, a British senior naval officer who in the battle of Chesma (July 5-7, 1770) commanded the Russian rear guard:
После разных похождений, при которых некоторые корабли отстали, другие зашли в иностранные порты, один транспорт разбился в Категате, а один корабль и вовсе покинут был в Англии, флот наш собрался к зиме в Средиземном море. Придан был еще контр-адмирал Эльфинстон, с тремя кораблями, двумя фрегатами и несколькими транспортами, а главное начальство на море и на суше принял граф Алексей Григорьевич Орлов. Всю зиму флот занят был блокированием или занятием турецких городов и крепостей, то высадкой, то сбором туг и там войска, в подкрепление грекам; но по бестолочи их, своевольству, непривычке к порядку и послушанию все попытки их, даже при нашей помощи, были довольно неудачны. Весной 1770 года турецкий флот вышел из Цареградского пролива и через Дарданеллы; тогда флот наш всеми силами пустился на поиск за ним.
Контр-адмирал Эльфинстон, с тремя кораблями и фрегатом, первый открыл, в половине мая, неприятеля за мысом Св. Ангела, на самой южной оконечности турецкого полуострова Морей. Адмирал спустился на турецкий флот, несмотря на слабость свою, и завязал было сражение; но турки уклонились и при затиши успели уйти буксиром в залив Навплию. ("The Battle of Chesma")
Vsevolod Garshin served as the model for the dying Tsarevich Ivan in Ilya Repin's painting Ivan the Terrible and His Son Ivan 16 November 1581 (1883-1885). According to John Ray, Jr., Humbert Humbert had died in legal captivity, of coronary thrombosis, on November 16, 1952, a few days before his trial was scheduled to start:
“Lolita, or the Confession of a White Widowed Male,” such were the two titles under which the writer of the present note received the strange pages it preambulates. “Humbert Humbert,” their author, had died in legal captivity, of coronary thrombosis, on November 16, 1952, a few days before his trial was scheduled to start. His lawyer, my good friend and relation, Clarence Choate Clark, Esq., now of the District of Columbia bar, in asking me to edit the manuscript, based his request on a clause in his client’s will which empowered my eminent cousin to use the discretion in all matters pertaining to the preparation of “Lolita” for print. Mr. Clark’s decision may have been influenced by the fact that the editor of his choice had just been awarded the Poling Prize for a modest work (“Do the Senses make Sense?”) wherein certain morbid states and perversions had been discussed.