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From: Dmitri
Nabokov
Sent: Saturday, October 11, 2003 8:49 AM
Subject: reply to Dane Gill
I would like to
answer Dane Gill's thoughtful questions.
I am sporadically
assembling an autobiography, which will include, if I ever get it
finished, echoes of items that have already been published here
and there, and a good deal more. As Dane Gill supposes, some personal
thoughts and recollections will touch on my father. As for a proper
biography of VN, that task has been brilliantly accomplished by Brian
Boyd. Like many people, I have come face to face with the prospect of
creative writing. Here I cannot avoid a sense of enormous
challenge and responsibility. My father and I had a superb relationship, full
of modesty and humor on his part. While he never made it seem a
daunting burden or a filial obligation, he was pleased at the thought that I
might write something of my own, and even, on occasion, would suggest a plot or
theme or offer benevolent criticism. I had other wonderful teachers -- John
Ciardi, for example. But while my father was alive I had trouble
writing on a mature level. After his death, through some recondite process
of inheritance, I succeeded in composing a few short pieces -- essays,
memoirs -- that more or less satisfied me. As for creative writing, I
completed an odd kind of novel that appealed to some of my indulgent
friends and that may have shown some promise, but that will never be published.
I have started something else, but stopped work on it after a couple of
chapters. I could put the blame on my busy and complex daily life, but that is
not a valid excuse (most people are busy). To be quite honest, while
I have faced many dangers, this is the one domain that truly
intimidates me.
Sincerely,
DN